Summer Updates

Sometimes I'm really glad that no one reads this blog. It allows me to write a little more personally. This summer has been so sad thus far. With the recent loss of my brother, I find myself turning more and more inward. I'm more angry than I have been and I'm tending to trust less and less. Trust has typically been an issue with me, anyway, and now even more so.

This all took an interesting turn today when my sister-in-law asked about how we can all get along better as a family. I didn't really know how to answer that question that I've been avoiding for going on eight years now. I did tell her that it would probably help to have an airing of the grievances. I don't know, though, if this will actually help. It might make things worse. I do know there have been a lot of hurt feelings all around but, honestly, I'm just too exhausted to care. My husband, who is actually related to these people, shows little interest in resolving the issues that lie beneath...so I don't know if I should bother either. It takes too much energy.

Back to school. I'm finding out that I tend to throw myself in my work when I'm upset or depressed. Work is a good distraction and I'm pretty good at what I do. Oh well...who knows where all this will lead?